Alicia Benedetto
It Goes On & On
A compilation of poems written between Brooklyn, NY and Los Angeles, CA
First book to be published soon. Subscribe for updates on the launch.
unlearned
2024
Everytime my heart breaks
It breaks for all my lovers
Who once held infinite space within me
The ones I've been close to
And let inside of myself with a tenderness
Only the lucky ones touch
The pain of rejection activated, replayed
Breaking deeper, harder, shattering my light
And I ache from the longing of someone to hold
A circular rejection of familiarity
A heartbreak that never ends
For all of the things we never got to do
The tears sing me to sleep
Why won’t this ever end?
The disappointment hinders like a shuttering light
A flux of assault on my own intelligence
The motions run and control me
I don’t want to do this anymore
When will I learn not to give my heart away?
Heavenly Horizon
2024
Life is so much fun with you, it feels like it’s only just begun
Hold my hand and dance with me
Our story is so much fun
Free in the ways we need to be
Discovering one by one
Let’s create a life together
Take my hand and run
I want you to pull my hair and call my name like he used to
Slip your hand around my throat, constrict me like I’m used to
Turn me over, flip me fast, the air thickens when you make it last
This is what love looks like to me
Once in a while bring her in, but make me your priority
Physicality means the most to me
Show all of your love by touching me
You need to learn me, just wait and see
Heaven is on the horizon
Uncertain
2024
I feel manic, I feel panic
I’m just not sure what to do
All thoughts say to breathe
But I keep thinking about you
Your distance, it’s clear
It’s in front of my face
I haven’t done anything, but am I being replaced?
I’ll see you, I’ll meet you
Say when and I’m there
Please don’t ignore me,
I must admit I’m scared
The future's so bright, I’m holding on tight
Just open up and bring me the ring
I don’t want to guess how we feel
When we’re locked in, it’ll be more secure
I’ll never have to wonder when I open our door
I’ll do anything, it’s true
All I think about is you
Are you okay? In the clear?
What shirt did you put on? Did you eat today?
My devotion, it’s true
My hands out for you
When you fill it, I’m home
Like royalty filling the throne
My crown fits perfectly
I can’t wait for the world to see
Last Night
2024
I dressed in my best lace for you
Your eyes lit up
Brighter than I’ve ever seen
Following my every move
But when it came down to it, you don't have my fire in you
The ignition is minimized, dial on low
I'm trying to be patient, take it slow
But my fire is wild, bright, untamed,
Though I'm open to being tamed, reframed
I stay here longing, and waiting
For the intensity of the flame
Roses
2024
I haven’t let go of the roses you gave to me
Sitting upon my wall
Staring back at me
The red hues faded, deeper, dusty
From a younger rotation of life achieved
A few years have passed
But their dried, and well
Sensitive to the touch, but remains, in tact
A showcase hung in my home
I’ll never let them go
As long as time will tell
Your call in Spain revived our energetic composition
A medley of voices, dynamic, physicalities and reminiscence
Made me feel some type of way
Oceans and time between us, but nothing could diminish this fire fueled love
The hold you have over me is otherworldly
You’re forever my one
My roses on the wall, crinkled and aged
Actual perfection from you, to me
French
2024
Tasting me like I’m French wine
Calling out the notes of citrus
While I say you look so fine
I want you down there all the time
Please don’t tell him that you’re up in there
I might be too loud but I just don’t care
The bliss of the moment fuels the air
Unlocking me with every inch as you taste every dip
An infusion that’s bursting at the seams
I like our chemistry, the playfulness and the kink
Something casual can be so fun
But where does it go when I’m falling in love?
Plane from Spain
2024
All over the world
An unlimited roster, yet I choose you
A stationary security awaiting my return
But your windows left open to feel the next breeze
I hope to shut it and be the circulation through your lungs
A lively jolt with a surplus to survive on
In this lifetime and more
Close your window and call me home
I feel like I am floating in space
A constant turn on earth
On a time that constantly switches zones
No one can come into my heart to keep up
With my safety, arrival, departure
Whatever the day brings
A constant flux of loneliness
Letting the rain in
A flood of disappointment that’s never over
A girl just wants to be cared for
And a smothering of love
Like the kind I give away
For You
2024
It feels like every person I’ve dated
but now in a few form
Someone interested but distant
That leaves me wanting more
I want to know how I make you feel
Spread open my palm in yours
Fingers traced, mirrored
Hold my hair back tight in your grip
Neat and smooth, topped with a kiss
Chin lifted up with a perfect gaze down
Eyes locked on each other
Tell me what I do for you
Paint my veins
Make me yours
Tell me there’s no one else that you adore
Is this for real, I’m not so sure
But if it is, I’ve found my cure
ENAMORED
2024
It’s been a month since we met
Aligned and free in Joshua tree
Our hands remain held together
With our souls, our minds
A heart connection presented by surprise
Life brought us together on a night so fine
I’d be so honored to be able to call you mine
My head lies on your chest
Above your heart, weaning open
As your voice strums melodies
Your vibrations send into me
Suddenly, we make sense
A song sent out from you to me
I adore getting inside
Just as you do
You bought me toothpaste
While I got the wine
It’s been some time since I’ve felt this sign
The direction this is going in feels divine
Each sip we take erases the time
While ahead of us lies an eternity of infinite possibility
FALSE ALARM
2024
Soaring across the southern European sky
Clouds out the window rolled in a perfect, crisp bunch
Pinch me, have I arrived in Heaven?
I haven’t yet touched down
The sun is shining through, as you are waiting
I think I’ve found my angel
My connector to the second half of life
His hand awaiting mine before we’ve ever graced
This is definitely the heaven I’ve dreamt of
And worked so hard for
He waited in the cobble stoned streets
His crisp white button down, arms folded against the wall
I turned the corner, he came walking
Our lips met instantly and couldn’t pull apart
My tongue danced in a romantic rhythm with his
We couldn’t be more in sync
My turn up against the wall
I couldn’t ask for a more perfect introduction
We checked off a kink of doing it in public
In his backseat, we sweat and stripped
Chemistry so strong
Sat on top of him as we bounced into oblivion
Until an Italian came out, screaming
That we are too loud, to stop
So we did, after a bit of a show, under the moonlight
The next night we picked up where we left off
A cold shower after the scorching summer heat
In his hotel, booked just to see me
We kissed, hugged, and soaked one another up
He slid his fingers in me
And then we made love in the shower
And again on the bed until the early morning
Now in hindsight, I see
We weren’t meant to be
Youre judgemental on my face and waist
Saying I hid who I am
But I’ve been nothing but honest, now and always
So your shallow side leaves me to say goodbye, forever
Just another step along the way
Just like anyone else who first enters you from behind the first time
My Masterpiece
2021
I view you
Paralleled to how I view
a fine work of art
Unique
full of depth
and purpose
Trajectory
And curiosity
I don’t know your past life
I only know your present
But that raw surface underneath
Makes an alluring, textured canvas
With colors and grooves
Leading the eye through the canvas
Wondering more
And I
Want to glaze your canvas
Run my brush through your grooves
To kiss the finish
And watch as your vibrancy shines
Through my fingertips
CEREMONIAL
2024
The hot tears flooded down
And surrounded my head, like a hug
My body is warm and bursting with love
After the pain I’ve endured
The people who’ve left
Came to leave their wisdom
So that when I’m on my own
I’m able to fulfill everything to come
The womb of Mother Earth is dark but inviting
Ultraviolet rocks twinkling with orange heat
Sprinkled with Jungle herbs and water, producing a hot steam
Set to embody every part of your body
Crackles and chants fill the air
Ancestral connection honored and present
Such power, deep wisdom
Hand drums beating, but my heart racing faster
The only capacity of the mind is to be here now
The strength to revisit the parts of me
All the places I’ve come to discover
With my own eyes
And a love developed of my own
The jungle has a soft way of showing
Where alignment is necessary
Reflections among ourselves
Not just looking down
Into the water
Judgement
2024
Judgment passed in my direction
For sharing my feelings on new connections
But it's not my issue that I feel immensely
And profoundly
When all you know is streamlined
My energy is otherworldly
And you're just another person in it
Taking it for granted
DOWN BAD
2024
I was riding in a daze
Cycling in circles
Eyes on the road but simply put, no one home
The world, a blur
No life inside to cause a stir
The clock was moving and time was passing
But I was just living to close them
Each day faded into the next
An unbearable sleepwalk
Endless days turned nights
Full of surviving
Until one morning I woke
And decided to keep living
Present
2024
I am fueled by the thrill
Of feeling alive
As my budget gets bigger
So does my mind
Why would I stop
And save for the house
When home isn't something
I've ever known
Or been called to start
Home is within me, wherever I go
My ambition and desire
The fearlessness that radiates
and fulfills your wildest desire
I'm happiest out in the jungle
Or swimming in a new foreign sea
There isn't anywhere I wouldn't dare to be
Take my hand and come with me
While I'm full
My hair is growing
My eyes are wider
The smile inside is getting brighter
Forever Yours
2021
The presence of you
Brings a sense of pride to me
Everything you do
I view with admiration
If there's a such thing as forever
I am forever yours
I will change my world
To be forever in yours
My honorable metal
Held high on a shelf
Looked up to and admired
I've worked my whole life to have you
Growth found in trials and tears
Now worthy of Gold
Forever yours
Free reign
2024
Feeling like an outsider
There’s no one I belong to
Society just isn’t for me
Dig deep and let it align with you
I’m too good for this world
Nothing to comply to
Living free is the most important to me
Take my hand and let me guide you
Superficial is a waste of time
And time is just a constraint designed to cage you
I’ve broken free
There’s no gauge to measure up to
Free love, no rules
Bodies intertwined, many on you
Flow from one to another and let them slip inside you
A taste a sweet as an elixir designed to
Fill your cup, fill it up,
A sweet sip bringing you back to
A life of freedom with me
Only a few are blessed
And get to
him
2024
With you, I feel safe
Not only from the present
But with the events that follow
In your eyes, I become seen
With your support, I feel
You changed me forever
And forever is all I want with you
But I’m proud to say that I had you
Even if just for a transition
Because you’re my lifeline, my air
My person until forever ends
Life after you isn’t easy to do
Small things take effort
And songs play in your tune
The ocean less blue
And wine is less fine
The eyes once on me
Left for strangers' eyes in replacement
Empty of shallow desire
Rebuilding who I am
Take it easy
But it’s not fun
Black Coffee
2021
Black Coffee
A simple indulgence
Enticing the palate
No mix of milk or sweet sugar
No added taste
On the tip of the tongue
That’s what my men like
They don’t want anything more
Just a simple cup of coffee
No infusion of substance
Dancing through the glass
Nothing but it’s truest form
A strong cup
of Black Coffee
A pleasant swallow,
Strong body,
Wild aroma,
Lingering
As they push my blonde hair
Behind my ear
And take another sip
With a Black Coffee infused kiss
Exuding with energy
Like lightning through
Their veins
Struggling
2023
I want to convey
My longing for you
Without telling you
I twirl my hair and close my eyes
To transport to those days on the beach
The smell of kopal in my lungs
Amongst bronzed, warm skin
Drying, kissed with salt
Where I was once wrapped around you
And the whole world melted away
I close my eyes to all of the nights under the clear moon light
Dancing hand in hand
Twirling into our own bliss
The feeling of being the most important person in your world
a feeling I’ve only felt by your side
While I open my eyes
I’d like to think you feel them too
And share our unconditional love
From countries across the world
Because I can no longer tell you
Or I will crumble, again
How can I still be wishing for such a dream to come true
When it’s now impossible to be next to you?
Spilled Milk
2023
I milk myself to stay
In any possible way
What was once so vibrant and radiant
Simmered down to a dull, colorless compression
Already passed through the effort of exuding excitement
Yet squeezed to stagnance
The door was closed
But I drip, to a puddle
And my drops wean, under the door
To try to quench you in any sense
But you blow my drops back out
And I have no choice
But to soak them back up, into myself
Only to repeat again
With the next door closed
The milk’s gone sour
Like my view about you
At War
2023
Blood shed around your home
Going on a month at war
Grieving for your world
But I can’t possibly lose you
When my past year has been a battle
Grieving your life in mine
So as my hand released from yours
I pray for your safety
Despite you ignoring mine
In your heart
I still live for you
But now see the wall you built
To protect me from this bloodshed land of yours
To protect me from the demons
Even if that means
Life lived without you
Hot Water and Honey
My hot water and honey
So sweet to the tongue
When I taste you, I am entwined
Mesmerized
And I can’t get enough
Ingested inside
Swirling around every part of me
I can’t get enough
You are my sweet
hot water and honey
I can’t ever get enough
2021
First and Last Date
2020
As the sun settled down
Into an electric abyss
As did our lips
Upon the first touch
Fireworks set off
Rushed from you, to me, and back to me
An energy exchange
Slow, open
As if our bodies were merging
From just the first touch
We stayed and played
Bodies intertwined
As the electric abyss
Sunk into the ocean
Gentle and slow
More passionate than I’ve remembered
To be possible
On the first meet
Desire
2021
The sun disappears as the day is disrupted
By a rumbling tropical storm
Those around us fled the scene
But not us
We gazed at each other and thought,
“Why run, when we could have fun?”
So we splashed into the deserted pool
In the full on heavy rain
I, wrapped around your waist
Your artist hands grasping my back
Topless, skin to skin
Entwined in the most passionate kiss
Sending us into our own romantic world
Our eyelashes dripping
As we spin and share
Being fully present
In each other
He Speaks To Me
Artist hands
I told you
They were
And I love them
The way they move
Their grip
And touch
Their love
And power
I want to kiss them
And watch them
Around my neck
Surrendering to your power
My artist
2021
A Year of Longing
2023
I long for the presence of my lover
The one who changed my world
As I moved my world to a sunny state
We celebrated two transformative years
Sharing our hearts, minds, and souls
As the world rotated around us,
And us within the world
But you moved back to your land
One that’s old, conservative, and tough
Too isolating for me, but back to your roots
While I stay longing in the one we know
The world we built together
That is now mine alone
And I miss you
With every inhale
Unsure of how I’ll survive the next exhale
Longing
To feel whole with you
In any part of the world
Which is all ours
Body in Greif
2022
The greif hangs from under my eyes like weights
Torn down
Keeping my eyes heavy and low
Shielded
To defer reality
In front of
My eyes
My back
It aches
From lifting all the weight
As a distraction
Oh
What heartbreak holds
Surely takes a toll
Like a coin reused
Back pocketed
Tumbled and dried
Switching between countries
Like the flight is all mine
Body holds grief
Like a bouquet of flowers
Arranged
Deranged
Filling the space between
But dried out petals and leaves
Lizard
You both love The Doors
But only one can call me
Your own LA woman
In the city of lights
2023
Introductory
The illumination of Kusama’s infinity
Eyes wide fluttering up and around
Until our eyes met diagonally
You’re the brightest I’ve seen in months
And I get to call you mine
Shooting
Beyond
2023
Ship In The Sea
2021
Offering a home in the safest of spaces
in contrary to a revolving door containing multitudes
leading to a made up room full of visitors
Disconnected, closed off, polluted
from a stale taste of a tipped ships
Come with me and you will see
All the beauty there could be
If you turn down the visitor
And make my heart your home
The offer stands, here I find myself again
In the midst of a sea so choppy
With every door open for your entry,
A window could do too,
Anything is fine for you
But the waves crash, the ship sinks, and I drown with it
My last breath is for you
While yours is for yourself
And maybe the next visitor
While the doors to my house remain ajar
Until there is no more you
There is only me
The half that made it out of the sea
First Trip, Second Meet
2021
Hand in Hand
Skin to Skin
A new but familiar feeling
From months prior
If you want me to be yours, I’m there
We jet across the border
Met south in the sand
Hand in Hand
If you want me to be your girl, I’m yours
A bottle of white
Dinner over candle light
Hand in Hand
If you want me to be your toy, I’m fun
Stripped to skin
Peeling back the layers of ourselves, our age, our stories
Hand in Hand
Time doesn’t exist with you around
Only a lightning strike
Full of passion and radiance
Hand in Hand
Home
2022
It’s hard to be home
When you’ve given yourself away
Then left completely broken
Shattered
On the curb
Of what once felt complete
In your home
No longer aware of your breath or beating chest
Existing just because you have to
Broken in your own home
Head stacked on the heart
Yet somehow
Never further apart
If it meant anything
You wouldn’t leave me dying
On my own doorstep
Alone
Without anyone
Including myself
Having a big heart
Always leaves me miserable
and alone
Opposite Ends of A Long State
2021
350 miles between us
Feels like too many
As it robbed our bond
They say the North differs from the South
And I’d have to agree
As I lie here, waiting
For you to open my door
Kiss my forehead
And ignite the flame that launched us
Into the new year
Closer than we could have imagined
Now landed
North
South
So many miles in between
To fill
To get to where I am
Dull
2022
I once found comfort knowing
If we weren’t together as dusk sprung upon
We would still look up
At the same bright light shining
From the moon
At the same time
Now you’re an ocean away
And the moon shines for you
Before it gets to me
So it dulls out
And fills my head with doubt
Before it shines over the Pacific
View From The Pier
2021
I am the mist floating off the rear of a flowing wave
Spraying all that I am amongst the wet water
Light and airy
But enough to have you feel me
It’s a hot day in May and you can’t get enough of me
Fraying and swaying, hoping to get hands on me
But baby I’m not at your disposal
I’m here with the right elements and
Don’t you forget it
And as the sun sets
I leave your clothes wet
And your skin is damp as you know it
There’s a chill in the air
You wrap your arms around me
And I know it,
I’m yours
Like you know it
Fall in LA
2020
October in LA
The mornings are a little bit slower
As the sun takes it’s time
Unveiling itself from its slumber
A chance to reset from the endless days
Using its power and strength
For all of the people to absorb
Less sun through the blinds
A bit more time to unwind
Not as grey as a New York day
But gives a taste of what those were like
It’s been eight strange months
Intertwined in lockdown
But I’m happy to say
I’ve made my life in LA
Spell of Seas
2017
Enticing and unknown
You send shivers up my spine
With warmth in my heart
The seed has blossomed
Life has begun
You remind me what it means
To be electric
Like a lily in a pond
You keep me afloat
I never want to sink down
I’m a part of your room
Unsure of what’s past the corner
I haven’t wanted to discover
An unknown space
More than I do today
Scared
2022
When I opened my eyes this morning
I recited a poem, in my head
But when I went to write it down
It dispersed
Almost as if I was scared to tell you
How I really feel
My heart is a fire
And you're ice cold
Letting me burn to the ground
Unwell
2023
The winter feels long
Longer than the last two
It’s taking everything in me
To make it through without you
We usually embraced the sun above the Caribbean Sea
Now all I’ve got is a grey California sky
Releasing unusual amounts of rain
Matching the lump in my throat
I hold back
Thinking of living without you
You Can't Keep Up With Me
2018
I
A wild spirit
Full of adventure and
Something spur of the moment
Like tattoos
Or some plane
A ride you’ve only seen
Above your house
Off to the next world
To transform
Into something
New
Untraceable
Innovative
Surreal
Alive
True Self
2017
Shouldn't a foundation of wings
Be within reach as a padded cushion
As opposed to a ticking bomb
Ready to destroy all around?
Shouldn't we be open,
Truthful from the beginning
Rather than a fake cover
Trying to impress?
Mindful Absence
2021
And just like that, it's gone
After a weekend of complaints
With her by his side
Constantly entwined in the past and the future
The present is a hard place to be
He sees sex and smiles
She see his heart and mind
Traveling the length of time
To inspire her where she'd like to be
She told him she wants to be with him
For the weekend
As his plans cleared away
He had nothing left to say
But see you on another day
Inevitable
2021
The condensation falls from the window like a teardrop
It’s hard to distinguish
Natures vs mine
As a part of myself
Has been threatened to be removed
From existence
But the condensation
Is inevitable
Unavoidable
And far more painless
Than loosing your best friend
Creator
And family root
Lapis
2018
Lapis lazuli
The one
Who never leaves
When everyone else
Does
That doesn’t break faith
Or break trust
My incredible,
Beautiful,
Spirit
Before Sunrise
2019
The early dew, soft and untouched
By the manic breath of the ones who
Abuse, control, wrong
Settled into my lungs with
More peace of mind
Than a lover
Or a mother
Wrapping the purity around
I blink
And we’re alive
Before the city awakes
And we die in toxic shock
Away
2021
My last steps
Away from you
Dismissed
As I looked back,
Alone
It could've
Been anyone
But your eyes were
Fixated on your phone
As I flew off
Away
Long Distance
2019
I taste our distance
Severely sweet
Salivating for the high offered
Through the phone
Something so sweet
I didn't know possible
Better than any dessert
From that swanky bakery
On Mott street
Mixed with a devastation
Harsh pinch of bitter
A sour I’ve never liked
But I didn’t know
Was included
A mix of the balance
Of life
You cannot escape it
This is it
The End
2019
I love you
this isn’t going
to be easy
for me to get over
I loved you deeply
and I invested so much
of myself
in you,
in us
You’ve been the first thought in my mind
since we’ve met
And it hurts to admit
That it’s over
But I’m thankful
That it happened
You reminded me what it’s like
To share love, when I thought it was lost
You built me up and reminded me of what I stand for
You made me weak and I’ve had to show my power
I love you and honor the light in you
Even if you took some from me
Even if for now
Your Beginning
2017
I don't want to merely exist
I want to water, grow, and bloom
There is a light within me
Without complication or hesitation
That I would like to share
I breathe, sleep, and dream as you do
I wake and take this with me
I live with a fire inflamed within
So I could show you the heat
I extend my hands out
Because I know I can have anything in them
I am the rain and the sun,
The cold and the warmth
Let me show you.
Glimmer
2018
The reflection of the moon
Shining down on the sea of clouds
Like the lake
That lies in a complex
Shimmering
With tranquility
This is how the sky
Finds it’s peace
Disparage
2018
Unfair
To be made invisible
By everyone who was once
Your forefront
Disparaging
To be looked at
As a ghost
In the sea of
What was
Abandoned
From the comfortable
World
Into a cool, selfish air
Where did everyone I know go?
Unbalanced
A connection
Built on pleasure
The ins, the outs, the boundaries
So easily taken advantage of
With a wretched twist in the gut
Pulling the mind to the left
And the heart out of sight
2019
Separation
2018
Your nightly visits
Make me feel
At home, yet, torn
A love so strong
I desire, crave
A broken heart
Sunken in my chest
Heavy with my head
I look at you from across the street
You see me weeping
You watch, explore my deep emotion
You don’t show yours back
You watch how long I’ll be here
In observance
Trying to deny the longing
To feel my touch
I wake up to the scene
Of my tears slowing
And you step closer
To the sidewalk
My eyes open
I long to tell you
How much I love you
It's For A Reason
2021
He said
We are just a phase
While we were in paradise
Which evoked rejection
Feeling unwanted
Knowing there's no future
Only the present being shared
With his worry about his past and his future
I, a stepping stone
To distract
And fulfill every desire
And he
A hand to hold
To twist and dance
My way to something real
Partner
2019
His presence danced
Through my veins
He was my oxygen
Reviving me with every inhale
And losing myself
With every exhale
Positivity
2017
Unraveled
Twisted around
Fraying into follicles
Microscopic
And
Intertwined
Pulling in all directions,
Unwound,
Set away
Bound into the air,
Absorbing the endlessness
What was once an encompassing
warmth of protection,
Let loose into a sudden explosion
Of ties
With nothing left in sight
But light
Nothing Back
2017
Special
Is a fulfillment that only I
Am familiar with
It is spread
Like daisies and peonies
In a shed of light
And reciprocation
Is a dark cloud
Of abandonment
Functioning
Nucleus accumbens
Play a role in filing
Our pleasure
And bustle
When people anticipate
Rewards or
Something they desire
2019
A Dream
2019
The taste of distance
Upon my tongue
Last night I told you I loved you
And you looked into my eyes
Soft with care
On top of me
Inside of me
Repeating it back
As we collapsed
Into a daze
Of love
Drowning
2018
I see the wing of a plane
The ledge off a highway
I think about
How graceful it would be
To spread my wings
And jump
Down to the abyss
Of unfamiliar territory
"Dad"
2020
Bonded by blood, my special DNA
A sweet surrender I never got to choose
My creator, a stranger
Who are you and where were you?
Pulled apart in confusion
Felt like a state of illusion
I left a sign
Never knowing that what I left behind
Was the last memory to rewind
Pushback
2016
Why is it that when
We can finally accept others
We get crushed?
To live
Is to scream
Is to soar
Being Alive
2019
Thoughts
In motion
Moving thoughts
Transport electrons
Import
Export
To the next
Here
We go
Reasoning
2019
Human reason is the
Slave
Of passions
When we decide to act
We decide on the basis
Of a feeling.
Passions = feelings
Visions
2016
Shooting
Budding flowers
From
The depths
Of
My
Eyes
Encompassed
The magnetic pull
Is enough
To keep me sealed
2018
Break the chain
2016
Life is extreme when you realize
the idea of life has begun to revolve
around your office job
The routine of waking up to go to the same place
With the same people daily
Is repetitive
And quite depressing
To keep the soul alive and thriving,
It's important to find the root of your happiness
And keep it burning within
To close your eyes,
Sit down,
And think back to when responsibility
Was less of a prominent priority,
And living for yourself was more of one
A deep cleansing breath,
A quiet mind,
Is key to find
What helps you thrive in life
To turn part of my brain off for a few hours
To channel my inner spirit has been
Nothing short of a taste of freedom
While it was a hobby growing up,
I never expected painting to
Carry through life with me
Now, I show in galleries throughout NYC
Which is a beautiful taste of Empowerment and expression
To share this with the public eye and
Dish out a visual component of myself
Has been a huge accomplishment
For no one
But myself
Having the opportunity
To truly take time
To focus on
Your own passion
Is beautiful.
Finding balance
On the scale of work vs self
Is intimidating
And could often be forgotten,
But it's this outlet
That keeps us alive and growing
Lack Of
2021
I keep yearning
For connection
Seeking it out every second
Of every day
But all I get is attraction
And the willingness
To share our bodies
But not our hearts
When I have a big heart
Everchanging
2018
Life isn’t according to plan
People change
Nights transform
Flowers grow
Everything we know today
Will be gone one day
And we'll look back
Unafraid
Because we too
Became removed
And unparalleled to
What was
There is no forever
The First Fall
2016
I didn't know it was possible to feel
So awakened
From the soul
Mingling of two
Intertwined
In a chaos of purity
Energy radiating
So clear
And pure
A high stronger than substance
Making reality seem
Obscure
I never thought it was possible
Until the moment
We met
Creative Launch
2017
Artistic divination
Two spirits connecting on a higher frequency
While living in a creative world
Full of possibilities
Of the unknown
Hinged between us
Anything is possible
Tangible
Workable
Importance
2017
The saving grace
A heart pumps
Blood runs
Excitement electrifies the veins
Lightning strikes
Sun shines
Auras sparkle
Never have I felt this importance
Specialty screams
There is no way this is real
Can it be permanent?
Is this something that can last?
Is there forever,
Can we be everlasting?
Through tilts and shifts
The Earth is mine
I can shine eternally
Importance is the key to survival
Truth
Latched onto the spirit of
My higher consciousness
2017
Oversharing
2019
I told you I loved you
And didn’t get a reply
I didn’t intend to overwhelm you
Or over express
Rather appreciate who you are
What you mean to me
But life is full of experiences
And purposes
And you are special
Abandonment
2018
I am reminiscing on New York
Before I even
Leave New York
Is it a sign
That it’s time
To go
Essex Street
2019
A man
With a captains hat
And a crazy eye
Sits on the bench
At Essex Street subway
Screaming and crazed
Singing to the melody
In his deranged mind
He must think
He sounds good
Mid November
2020
There’s nothing as magical as setting your mind free
from conditional restraints
To unlearn, learn, set the ego free
To be one with your own self
And not those who have tried to shape you
To be alive
And well
And shedding
And sinking
To float, to soar, to see
To let yourself feel
Where you’re meant to be
So free, so light, so new
It’s you
Ending Of
2019
I lost myself very easily
I lost my interests
And my powers
I left myself outside
As I jumped into you
We intertwined as I
Lost grip of my
Own hand
And placed it
In yours
In a whirlwind of
Forever
Which turned into
Just over a year
Of illusion
Happenings
Shadows and light
Conspiring
Never leave your pillow wet
Throw it over your shoulder
And blink
2019
Empty
2019
The end has arrived
My heart accepts
But the routine is
Longing,
Pulling,
Begging,
For the tone
Soothing
Sending shivers
Down my spine
Ignited by loss
What was
A dream
A disconnect
A lie
Emotional
2019
You can’t pinpoint
The path
Or the reason
But it sits within
Tucked, hidden
And comes out to peep in
And remind you
That eternal nirvana
Doesn’t include
Sad pits
Thrill of 2020
2020
What happens
When the thrill has been robbed from us?
No more events, roller coasters, celebratory happenings.
No jobs. No money. Nowhere to go.
But to ground
So perhaps the thrill of it all
Is within us
It’s what brings us home.
To nature, to source, to the light, trees, air.
We are one
With the thrill
Of being alive.
Pandemic
2020
When the world shut down to bring in
The sweetest spring and sunniest summer
My mind did as well
It wasn’t off, but it was down
Like the spirits of the people
And the businesses surrounding my home
Forbidden to move, to grow
Stagnant as a collective world
Sat in the face of fear
Without answers or a timeline
A new life, a new location
With a job lost, ammunition
Frozen, stuck, alone
Reconsideration
Amongst mountain tops
Who is the new me and what truly matters?
Plead For Deeper
I wish I could have known you for years
And felt your tears and felt the fear in your heart
And understood your routines, and life, and love
And grew like weeds in the garden of our own seeds
2017
The Stray
2016
My Mother says
No weird
Is good
I say
Good weird
Is good
And this is where
We stray
I am here
2016
I am here
To make beauty
To show light
To evoke
To enlighten
I am here
To show you
How much more
Is possible
With a heart,
Mind,
Soul,
That is open and free
Follow my lead
Be one
With me
Love all
Numb Strength
2016
I feel as though
I feel too much
Or maybe
I don’t feel enough
And cover it up
With a numb
Taken away by
Mental strength
So determined
That everything thought
Is true and genuine
In its most
Transparent nature
In Love
2017
Heart
Shutter splash
Electrify
Ignite
Fulfill
Wonder
Wander
Embrace
Absorb
Present
Coast
2016
On the beach
Embodied by the beautiful tranquility
Of the cyclical ocean and
Warmth of the sun
Wish you were here
Cuddling with me
In the sand
As one
Traveling While Calling Home New York City
2018
I’ve been traveling almost every day for the past month and a half
It’s a beautiful and fortunate opportunity,
To see the world and breathe
The freshest of air in the rainforest,
Appreciate palm trees and bridges,
Walk the cobblestone roads full of history.
It’s the perfect reminder
Of what makes not only each city great,
But the highlights of my own city
When I so clearly felt doubts about it.
It’s easy to get wrapped up
In the day to day and forget
Why New York is the greatest city in the world
I love that I can call this city my home
Each trip brings mindfulness
A clear awakening on the times
I step out,
Run on my own schedule,
Do as I wish
As I go on,
I observe human nature
In its purest sense
I note the details
That gives each city
Its own personal charm
The mannerisms,
Forms of payment,
Body language
I ingest each city;
Their people, nature, food, outlook, style, shopping habits
My face exudes with admiration
The air time is a mixture of elements;
Slight exhaustion
Waves of accomplishment,
Hints of anxiety,
Drops of everything in between
Self growth is the strongest element
At this time
I see those I know
Committing to another
Which unfortunately results in
Hearing from them
Less frequently
My physical presence is replaced
A feeling rushed over me;
I constantly provide magic
To all that I know
And in the peak of my travel
These people drop out
Why must I be the initiation to keep all alive?
This world is a two way road and
Reciprocation in all aspects is mandatory
I love to shed my light on all that I meet,
But while ingesting so much new energy
It’s important for you,
The people in my life,
To be mindful of your actions
I love you all and
I am blessed to love this life.